2:44am

The Thoth Tarot told me to pay attention to my sorrow today, as did the pages of the Eckert Tolle book I am reading for a second time. A longing for belonging is a cause of suffering which has waxed and waned in importance to my human ego over the years. Maslow put it in the hierarchy of needs for survival, yet it appears to merely be a mental requirement.

Homo-sapiens are thought to have evolved beyond animal instinct for an intellectual pursuit of innovation. Could our next advancement be to overcome the mind itself and all its trappings? In an effort to escape modern marketing’s psychological tactics many of us have sought eastern philosophies of non-wanting. Ironically that search is still a desire for something motivated by the avoidance of something else.

My brain processes best visually, which is likely why writing is the most effective maintenance for my mind. The mind is a tool, it is used to captain the vessel which is my physical body through the often choppy seas of life. The true me, lies both deep within and far without. The mission, my purpose, is always in reach. Every day, which is always today, there is ample opportunity to make effort toward it.

Seizing each moment with humility and an openness to opportunity will aid in my efforts. Despite decades of study and practice the human mind and the animal body continue to operate on auto pilot at times. I believe that is why it is said to seek the beginners mind.

In the beginner’s mind there are many possibilities, in the expert’s there are few.

- Meagan McCrary

What I can choose to do right now is to step back and observe the thought patterns. Writing it down is almost like having a patient note their own chart at the hospital. The process still works though, and could lead me closer to my calling which is manifesting the true communication tool, experience.

At my current labor intensive workplace I attempt to zone in to the body mechanics, and to think about the blocks I’m stacking as I build my metaphorical healthy body temple. The preparation is exceptionally important as we enter the new paradigm, life might get rocky as the old paradigm crumbles away.

To the evolution of the spirit, Salud!